You and Me

aku merepek

2011-08-13T03:03:00.001-07:00

ouch that hurts,
i feel like tearing.no one said that t me bfore.
KAU DA CUKUP MEREPEK DALAM HIDOP AKU.

huda go die/
did i give ex bf high hope.nope i dont think so.
i dont care about him anymore.
ghe dont ring any bell to me.
and you said that?
wow amazing.

best thing.

2011-07-23T21:47:00.000-07:00

SATURDAY WAS AWESOME.
NEXT MONDAY-POLITE! :(
scary scary but what to do,i've train hard oh my.
FARHANA SALEH,ME LOVE YOU/

cause honestly you turned out t be the BESTEST FRIEND ;')

2011-07-20T08:39:00.000-07:00

been a while since i last blog,well im back to school
campus 2.2 baby.six more months and im done.
well i just finished reading radin's blog.OMG,how fast time flies.
Known her seen sec one and now we're turning eighteen.
Five years and i love her.bestest friend including Malee key.
i went thru lots of shits with her especially the last year of sec school,that wasn't how it supposed to endscrew you people.But that's what bring us closer then ever.We sneak out from the house,smoking,drinking,what else name it,it was done with you/
How small we were and you are still that smallgirl that ive known five years ago.
How i much i miss you and the time we spend laughing talking crap and stick it thru the hardest momment of sec.People who create shit and pushes us to our limit and crack the shit out of us.i know i've MIA.been very busy lately,but we'll go out soon okay.after im done with this post,i will TEXT radin nurizzati!IDC.even if it's close t midnight.i miss her.radin got miss me tak?

She's the only one that support me and got my back thru everything.even after knowing im a lesbian she didnt object instead support me and told me to do what's right.

i love you :/

Means nothing

2011-04-30T20:12:00.000-07:00

"some people want diamond ring but some just want everything."

cold treatment

2011-02-26T21:48:00.000-08:00

you gave cold shoulder.i stood there,hold on to you still.
i don't know why im still there but one thing for sure i want t be by your side,always.maybe whatever im doing,got you thinking i don't want you t move on.
but if you do,go on.you got my blessed.because i remember you said'im the worst but still the best' you deserve better.someone who don't have ex-bf someone who you can trust.when i said i love you,you replied okay.when i did post that on your wall,you deleted it.because people know about us and they're blaming me for every reasons we quarrel.well the only thing i got t say,im sorry.even if i do you said i don't.the reason why i didn't explain t you as much as i did in the past six months because even if i do you will still blame me for everything.forget about it.no one will understand even if they do,huda it's forever your fault.so suck it in.woaaah emotionally depress.no cellphone,no fb-ing.happy finding.im going for a run.a very long run.

that girl turn me to insert word.that girl made me forget insert name.that girl leave me because insert reason.that girl made me say no because insert excuse.eventually my whole world crumble,fall apart :')

BORED

2011-01-19T08:44:00.000-08:00

EX-GF,THE ONE AND ONLY BABYGIRL.HELLO EARTH,MEET MY EX-GF FARHANA.
The awesomest girl.

babylove.

2011-01-19T08:35:00.000-08:00

BORED :D
Hi honey get well soon please i love you alot.more than you ever know.turn up for soccer.i sucks balls.sumpah aku takut bola.but nanti da lame lame da okay punye la.will start runninng from next week onwards.want t keep stamina up.yes cross country aroung the corner,and so i want t run like a mad bitch please.so urm,2.4km below 10 mins?can huda?can sure can.who said a smoker can't run?stupid bitch.i miss dancing lets get back on track not in hiphop but salsa and tango.yes something new but who cares, i know i can dance.might as well i dance while i cannn.i got t run now,love you earthling.hello baby please get well soon.peeping you at school makes my day awesomeee.baby,Xoxo.

Draggy

2011-01-15T16:25:00.000-08:00

how long more?been thru alot.fcuk it.school sucks as usually.damn project i got to complete you in three weeks times,who are you kidding?Soccer resuming next week,like finally i know right. :D Had to do project yesterday,damn seriously even my saturdayy?no way.I got to do this right three more weeks only huda.After seeing A's in result confirm smile like ther's no tmrw, i know right the feeling :)
So yea been thru alot of suckish momment i just don't like school.I got to faces i don't like.How awful can this go? da bye.i shall end my post here. <3

2010-12-22T17:56:00.000-08:00

hello stalker.
i knw you been stalking me.
:)
i don't know what i want and what i need.
fcuk.i give up.

2010-11-27T22:27:00.001-08:00

i keep typing and backspace.
what the hell im thinking.
hi baby, love me like how you love me will you?
<3

Babygirl

2010-10-07T17:47:00.001-07:00

Hello baby, i love you.
Get well soon please.

Winter

2010-09-30T15:25:00.000-07:00

"you ever love somebody so much you can barely breathe"
Farhana,the only girl i love this much.
So much that i can't barely leave.
i can't walk out because I'm so attached t you.
my everyday resolve around you and i don't wish t let go of you.
i love you, i want you,i need you.
because baby i breathe you.
don't you run away from me because I'm going t give you every piece of me.
I'm going t give you everything and I'm not going to stop till i got it right.
things wouldn't be the same without you.
whose going t pick up my morning call?
whose going t call me 'GEMOK'?
are you going t leave me when times i need you the most?
or are you going t stay with me and pull this thru together?
because baby you're by far the best i ever had.

we started off being just friends.
then we became close,closer than ever.
we holds hands but i didn't too much about that.
we hug, eventually i confess it.
but things wasn't clear because I'm still attach t my boyfriend.
but it's you i want t be close with.
it's you i want t spend my everyday with.
Ahbie, thanks for everything.
i love you gf.

bugg life.

2010-09-05T12:55:00.000-07:00

Is either im blind or im just plain dumb.
maybe things are way better without me around.
it's just that it hurts so bad t see someone care about you more than i do.
not more than a friend.
not just anybody but you know who.
the pretty lady who you once had something on with her.
fine i've make miistake just one silly mistake everything seems so different.
every eyes on me, every single day pinning down my mistake.
my god.im a human too okay.
like i said, is either im blind or im just plain dumb.
t keep things t myself.
the world seems a different places never i thought it could be this dumb.
past one weeek,i've get back t the basic.
TO KNOW MY CLASSMATES ALL OVER AGAIN.
the fact i know them inside out makes everything so contradicting.
so i was like'Im nurul huda.and im 17 this year. :)'
see if i have t go thru this just because of some sickening mouth,
means it's bad.like real bad.
because seriously im still bloody mad at you guys.
still got the cheek t say t me,'stay strong,i got nothing t do with this'
FUCK YOU YEA.IM GG T MAKE SURE I WILL RIPP EVERY PART OF YOUR LIFE,THE ONE WHO HAS BEEN BUGGING MINE.LIKE HELL YEA,JUST WAIT.I'LL MAKE SURE YOU FEEL DUMBFUCK SORRY FOR BUGGING MINE.HAPPY WAITING BITCHES.

Trash Can.

2010-08-25T18:11:00.000-07:00

Im back to blog.Just this one post of mine.
im going t let the world see this.
Sincerely t Sinar Puhari.
Sinar sayang, i know we're drifting apart.like literally apart.im sorry.thanks for being very honest with me therefore i respect you.Sinar Run,let's get back t the basic.
Hello sister you know i love you don't you?

A sincere apology t Sinar,classmate,baby and lastly Farrhezzy.

Farhezzy Amirrul,
Enough alright what's over is over.Let's get this over and done with Im sorry for everything.Again i shall thank you.Im not giving you HOPE or anything,we are just friends.There's a limit t everything.I shall learn from my bloody ass mistake.

Farhana Bte Saleh,
Baby,im sorry.I know you need time for yourself but then again till when?Im going t make my stand clear.I love you that's all i can say.Whatever happened,happen already.My mistake yes i admit but then apart of it was plain bullshit.LITERALLY FUCKING SHIT,JUST PLAIN BULLSHIT
Farhana,i love you.

<3

FUCK YA?
Somehow, i just don't get.This thing is bugging inside my mind since like yesterday.Fuck hell ya?People been seeing so instead of come up to me tell me what's up, but no.Suddenly BARZUKA hit the target.Hell ya the right target.I know you guys care about baby i should appreciate that but than again why can't you guys come up t me.Clear things.Right things happen for a reason.
AGAIN PEOPLE IM NOT CHEATING ON SOMEONE NAME FARHANA WITH SOMEONE NAME FARRHEZZY BEHIND HER BACK!NA'AY IM NOT!GET THIS CLEAR YAW.
whatever happen next,jadi la.