Winter

"you ever love somebody so much you can barely breathe"
Farhana,the only girl i love this much.
So much that i can't barely leave.
i can't walk out because I'm so attached t you.
my everyday resolve around you and i don't wish t let go of you.
i love you, i want you,i need you.
because baby i breathe you.
don't you run away from me because I'm going t give you every piece of me.
I'm going t give you everything and I'm not going to stop till i got it right.
things wouldn't be the same without you.
whose going t pick up my morning call?
whose going t call me 'GEMOK'?
are you going t leave me when times i need you the most?
or are you going t stay with me and pull this thru together?
because baby you're by far the best i ever had.

we started off being just friends.
then we became close,closer than ever.
we holds hands but i didn't too much about that.
we hug, eventually i confess it.
but things wasn't clear because I'm still attach t my boyfriend.
but it's you i want t be close with.
it's you i want t spend my everyday with.
Ahbie, thanks for everything.
i love you gf.

bugg life.

Is either im blind or im just plain dumb.
maybe things are way better without me around.
it's just that it hurts so bad t see someone care about you more than i do.
not more than a friend.
not just anybody but you know who.
the pretty lady who you once had something on with her.
fine i've make miistake just one silly mistake everything seems so different.
every eyes on me, every single day pinning down my mistake.
my god.im a human too okay.
like i said, is either im blind or im just plain dumb.
t keep things t myself.
the world seems a different places never i thought it could be this dumb.
past one weeek,i've get back t the basic.
TO KNOW MY CLASSMATES ALL OVER AGAIN.
the fact i know them inside out makes everything so contradicting.
so i was like'Im nurul huda.and im 17 this year. :)'
see if i have t go thru this just because of some sickening mouth,
means it's bad.like real bad.
because seriously im still bloody mad at you guys.
still got the cheek t say t me,'stay strong,i got nothing t do with this'
FUCK YOU YEA.IM GG T MAKE SURE I WILL RIPP EVERY PART OF YOUR LIFE,THE ONE WHO HAS BEEN BUGGING MINE.LIKE HELL YEA,JUST WAIT.I'LL MAKE SURE YOU FEEL DUMBFUCK SORRY FOR BUGGING MINE.HAPPY WAITING BITCHES.